I did it.

I did it!!!

 
(I know I look like a hot mess, but I was flying high at this point)

Not only did I do it, I exceeded my own expectations.

As most of you already know, this past Saturday I ran and completed in my first 1/2 marathon.

I ran 13.1 flipping miles!!!

I am most proud to say I RAN EVERY STEP OF THE WAY!!!!

Since my training got sidetracked over the past two months, I went in giving myself a lot of leeway.

"It's okay to stop and walk."
"Your only goal is to finish."
"Walk the hills and run the rest."
"Don't worry about time.....just finish."

However, I took it slow and steady.  By mile 8, I realized I hadn't stopped once and at that moment I knew I could do it.  My mantra then turned to....

"keep going"
"One foot in front of the other."
"DO NOT STOP!!!"

And, I didn't stop.  I ran every single step and every single hill.

Honestly, I'm more proud of that right there than I am of my time.

  
(my official time)

Saturday was such an emotional day.  Y'all know I'm a crier and there were lots of tears.

I cried beforehand from nerves.  I cried while standing in my corral when my two best friends called to tell me how proud they already were of me, right at the moment I needed it most.  I cried at mile 9 when it felt like my knees were going to give out and I couldn't go up one more hill (I went up another 5 after however).  I cried at mile 11 when I saw my family for the first time.  I cried when I saw the finish line just yards ahead of me.

 

(cue the tears at both of these moments)

Saturday, I knew what I had accomplished, but it hadn't quite sunk in yet.  Sunday morning however, I woke up feeling way proud of myself.  I woke up feeling like I could do anything.  It's crazy to think that only nine months ago, I couldn't run a 1/2 of a mile and Saturday, I ran over 13!!!

I finally said out loud to someone the other day that this was such a big deal to me, not so I can say "I've ran a half marathon" but so I can say "I set a goal and I reached it."  To be quiet honest, I feel like my twenties were filled with a bunch of unfinished business.  I never finished college, I never had a "real" job, I wasn't cut out for foster care, I couldn't get pregnant again, and let's be honest, I couldn't even give birth like a normal person.  Though yes, I married my best friend, have an awesome marriage and a beautiful daughter, in my own personal view, I felt like my twenties were filled with a bunch of failures on my part.  The half marathon fell just one month  and one day after my 30th birthday and it became a way to start off the new decade with the mind set that I can accomplish anything I work for.

So, it's more than just bragging rights, its a new start for me.

I know running is not for everyone, but can I tell you how it was such an amazing thing to be there with 5,000 other women all working for the same goal.  I know each and every woman there had a story of their own and why they were there running.  I mean, most people don't sign up to run 13 miles just because.  I saw several women with shirts that said "I run ________."  and they had their reasons written in.  I think it would have been awesome to hand those out to every woman there. 

(there were about 600 more women behind me)

And yes, I'd do another one in a heartbeat.

I may or may not have already thrown out the suggestion of two for next year.  So, if you want to run one, call me.


I have a few thank yous to give out tomorrow and then I promise to stop all the half marathon talk....for now.

Comments

Tristan said…
you're awesome!!!!!!
Anonymous said…
Congratulations!!! I am proud of you :)
Amy K.
Nicole said…
I can't wait for the next race. Not that I'll be running with you, but you can bet your sexy compression socks that I'll be screaming at you as you run by!!!

GO THIRTY!!
Kim said…
I needed to see this post!! Great JOB!! 3 months ago I couldn't run 500 feet and now I'm averaging about 1.5 -2 miles without stopping. I'm loving it, and already wanting to do a tiny "marathon" run just to get my mind set!
Jules said…
Hi! I found your blog through the The Java Mama. I may or may not have teared up reading your post. I am on week 8 of the C25K and although it is nothing close to a half marathon I think I am going to be just as emotional when I do my 5K next month. I was the epitome of a couch potato 8 weeks ago and last night I ran just shy of two miles. Congratulations on your 13.1....I can't imagine that I could ever run that far, but then again I never thought I would be able to run 2. I am your newest follower and look forward to more running tales!